Edie Spence [02] Moonshifted Page 8

  “You’ll have your answer in less than a week. And what’s a little blood between friends?” Sike said, hanging up. Sike and I hadn’t gotten along the past few times we’d met. I don’t know why I’d thought this phone call would be an exception.

  My phone’s screen jumped to show me the time. I was late. Fuck.

  I changed scrubs and put my leftovers in the Y4 break room fridge, then ran up to trauma ICU, repeating a mantra to myself: Only four hours, holiday pay, only four hours, holiday pay.

  It’s always strange to be a float on another unit. I’d floated around enough to be able to find a saline flush within twenty feet of anywhere in the hospital, but each floor had its own peculiar habits, and its own people you learned you did not want to cross.

  I knew from prior experience that the charge nurse for the trauma ICU was one of them. You know how some people played the game where they added the phrase in bed at the end of fortune cookies? You could add the phrase are you stupid? to everything she said. She just had that intonation.

  I pushed through the doors and made my way to the charge nurse’s desk.

  “Edie Spence, I’m floating here tonight.”

  The charge nurse ignored me. “You’re late.” Are you stupid?

  “Sorry. Traffic.” We both knew on Christmas Day, it was a lie. She pointed without looking up.

  “Your assignment’s on the board, your break is at nine. Don’t be late, or you won’t get it.”

  “Gotcha. Thanks.”

  I wrote down the room number I was responsible for and trotted down the hall.

  * * *

  Trauma was always loud—even louder than Y4, and the noise here was around the clock. I’d never been here before when there wasn’t an admit going on, and someone being discharged to make room for someone new. There were the normal hospital sounds, machines, pumps, ventilators, but above and beyond that—chatting, crying, chat-crying. Visitors. They were what sucked most about coming in early. Visitors were never good. Even when they were happy there’d always be something. It was one thing to consider yourself a highly skilled waitress with access to narcotics—it was another for someone else to treat you like it. Repeatedly.

  Still, it was Christmas. And sad things were happening here, by virtue of the fact that it was trauma. You could ask visitors to tone it down, but you could hardly throw them all out.

  I made my way down the floor to my assignment. I wasn’t very surprised when my echolocation of the loudest visitors found them inside my room. Of course—because I was the float.

  As a float nurse, you were either given the easiest patients because they didn’t trust you, the hardest because they didn’t care if you drowned, or the ones with the worst family members, because everyone else was over dealing with them. I stood in the doorway of my assigned room and looked inside.

  There were rosaries hanging on all the IV poles. An entire Latino family was in here, but most of the noise came from one older woman crying, wailing the ancient refrain of Why God, Why. Everyone at the hospital wanted answers from God, and He was never around to give them. She looked up at my entrance, and I could see where her tears and overzealous use of Kleenex had completely wiped away one of her makeup eyebrows. An older man was pacing beside her, and a younger woman stood at the head of the bed, petting my patient’s cheek. The nurse I was replacing was across from her, programming an IV pump.

  “Hello?” I knocked on the doorway, and the nurse inside came out.

  She kept her report brusque and devoid of emotion. Seen it all, done it all was the motto of the trauma ICU nurse. Innocent bystander syndrome. Gangbanger fight. Gunshot wound to the spine. Paralyzed now, and losing sensation as the swelling continues. On pressors to keep his blood pressure high.

  The trauma from the gunshot, the bullet’s cavitations, or the subsequent swelling had done an odd number on his spine. It had already rendered him unable to move, and as his injury progressed his ability to feel was being stolen away from him, one centimeter at a time. The outgoing nurse and I checked the IV drips together and probed along his side. When we found the spot where feeling ended, we drew another dot with a purple Sharpie, like we were turning him into a connect-the-dots paper doll, one dot after the next. The wailing in Spanish didn’t stop.

  I took advantage of the old nurse leaving the room to leave myself, co-signing the chart, rifling through the history and progress notes.

  Truth was, I was hiding.

  In nursing school we went to some cultural classes, but they weren’t so much about learning about other cultures as they were Being Nice to people with different beliefs. That part had worked so well that I could now Be Nice to vampires, so surely I could deal with anything here. But part of me always remembered that time I’d asked a patient if he was frijoles, instead of frío.

  I read the chart for a bit, trying to look official, and found out what I already knew: Javier Rodriguez, male, aged eighteen, was inside. And this would be the last night he had feeling below his neck.

  I closed the chart, said a silent prayer hoping that the doctors had already answered all of the hard questions in eloquent Spanish, and went inside.

  CHAPTER SIXTEEN

  Javier had short dark hair and wide shoulders. He was dressed in a hospital gown and had a plastic collar on, protecting his neck from any pressure or torque.

  Standing over him and stroking his hair was his sister—or maybe his girlfriend. She was strikingly beautiful. High, precise brows over wide, heavily made-up eyes; lips outlined in red, with the lipstick fading in between, from time spent kissing Javier’s forehead. Her straight black hair spilled down the bed to his armpits.

  “Hi. I’m Edie, I’m going to be your nurse for the next four hours,” I said over the sound of his crying mother. He grunted.

  I ran the blood pressure cuff, took his temperature, felt for pulses, listened to lungs. A small dressing beneath his right clavicle was stained with the color of old blood. I took a Sharpie and drew its boundaries, just in case it opened up again.

  “Are you in any pain?”

  Javier flicked dark eyes toward me, then back at the ceiling. “No. Never.”

  The woman standing beside him nodded and resumed petting him. His mom kept sobbing, wordless sounds.

  “Is there anything I can do for you?” I asked him, then included the room at large.

  “Café,” said the not-crying woman. She was definitely the girlfriend. I knew from the way I saw her look at him now.

  “Certainly,” I said, and retreated out the door.

  * * *

  I walked down the row of other rooms on the trauma floor. None of them had happy people inside. That, multiplied by the time of year, made everything particularly grim. I went to the room labeled NUTRITION, like it was from Star Trek, and made an instant coffee. While I was loading up an extra Styrofoam cup with powdered creamer and sugar, the overhead intercom announced that visiting hours were over for the night.

  The charge nurse called to me as I passed her desk on my way back. “Hey, float. Send all those people home.”

  It took me a second to realize who she meant. “All of them? Can’t someone stay?”

  “We don’t allow that here.”

  I frowned at her. She didn’t look up to see it. “He can feel things now but by tomorrow morning, he’ll be insensate,” I said.

  “So?”

  Seen it all, done it all, are you stupid? I tried another tack. “It’s Christmas.”

  “Only till midnight. Then it’s December twenty-sixth.”

  “So someone can stay till midnight?” I asked, trying to work in some innocence and charm. I really didn’t want to be the bad guy. Not this time.

  She stopped typing and turned toward me. “One person. And that person better have a ride home, we’re out of bus passes.”

  I’d take what I could get. “Okay. Thanks.”

  She went back to typing on her computer, without response.

  * * *

 
I slunk back to Javier’s room with the good-bad news. “I got permission for one of you all to stay till midnight.” I hated myself a little for hoping the designated visitor didn’t wind up being his mom.

  “Luz,” Javier said, in a whisper. I was sure who he meant.

  Javier’s mother started crying again, and blotting at her face—at this rate, the other eyebrow didn’t stand a chance. I stood outside the room while they said their good-byes. They hugged him. It would be the last time he was able to feel it. There was a knot at the back of my throat, and all the swallowing in the world couldn’t get it to go away. I felt like I was spying, so I opened up my chart and tried to disappear.

  “Pretty girl. Pity she’s with him,” said a person standing next to me. I startled and looked up.

  Sike stood beside me. Sike was a Rose Throne daytimer, and while Anna trusted her, I did not.

  In her day job, Sike was a model and as such professionally gorgeous, but right now she wore little makeup and her red hair was pulled into a high bun. A dour lab coat covered her slender frame’s soft curves. The name VERONICA LAMBRIDGE was embroidered on the pocket over the words LABORATORY TECHNICIAN. I knew Sike was neither Veronica, nor a lab tech. She patted the white lapel. “Fits nice, doesn’t it?”

  I looked around at the floor. “You should have called.”

  “Oh, I’m not here for you.” Sike smiled at me, and her face didn’t match her tone. “Let’s not be an idiot in public. I’m just your friend from the lab.”

  “Lab workers and nurses don’t fraternize.” I hoped that “Veronica” was merely off duty and not stuffed into a trunk. “If you’re not helping me, then why are you here?”

  “I need you to take me to Y4.” She put her hand on my arm just as Javier’s parents walked out, the father propelling the mother around my desk and toward the doors. We were both quiet until they passed.

  “I can’t leave till my break,” I whispered.

  “When’s that?”

  “Nine. You’ve got an hour to kill.”

  It was obvious from her bearing that this was untenable. But there was no way she could drag me off in front of so many people without causing a scene. She wasn’t a full vampire, just a daytimer, she didn’t have look-away yet. She let go of my arm.

  “Just go yourself,” I said, massaging blood back into my tricep.

  “I can’t. The elevator doors won’t open for me.”

  I pretended to read Javier’s chart. “Has that ever happened before?”

  “No.”

  Well. Saying that was not good was probably an understatement. “There’s a lobby behind those doors. Go wait by the fish tank.” She looked down at me, full lips pursed in frustration. “I’ll come as soon as I can,” I added.

  “You’d better.”

  * * *

  If it wasn’t one vampire, it was another … in a manner of speaking. I waited until I was sure she was gone, then went into Javier’s room for his hourly feeling check.

  “Can you feel this?” I poked the cap of my pen against the side of his ribs.

  “No.”

  “This?” I asked, trying higher.

  “No.”

  I looked up at his face and saw his jaw clench, between answers.

  “This?”

  “Sí.”

  I marked it. Another half a centimeter of feeling, gone. It was like he was slowly drowning, no way to turn around, walking farther and farther out into an inexorable sea.

  “Is there anything—” I began, because I had to.

  “Just go,” his girlfriend said, then added, “Please.”

  I nodded, and did so.

  * * *

  I noted his new loss of feeling in his chart. The charge nurse came by, I thought to break me early, but she handed me a printout from a news website instead. Two Injured in Drug Deal Gone Bad, said the headline, and beneath it, One died en route, and one went to County, in critical condition. I folded it in half, and stuck it under the chart, realizing how easily their problems could have been Jake’s. Thank God that at his worst, he was always a user, not a dealer, at least not that I knew. Okay, so maybe I did look at our shared cell phone bill some—but only to see if he’d been dumb enough to use it to make too many calls to strange numbers.

  An hour is a long time, sitting outside of someone’s room. On Y4, I could have made myself useful, restocking things, making bedrolls, reading charts, but here I didn’t know the flow, and didn’t want to get in anyone’s way. I doodled some in the margin of my non-official report sheet, sketching a flaming heart. When I heard a strange beep from inside the room, I looked up. Luz was texting on her phone, and she walked toward the door.

  “I have to answer this.”

  “Just pull the curtain. You can talk in the room.” There were NO CELL PHONE signs up all over, but nurses and doctors talked on them all the time—I hadn’t seen an iPhone make anyone’s pacemaker give out yet.

  “No. I have to go.”

  I stood in her way. My break was starting in fifteen minutes. Sike needed me, for some likely unpleasant reason, and I needed Sike for some guidance. But if Luz left now and there was a break relief nurse sitting out here when she tried to come back who wasn’t a softie like me, chances were she wouldn’t get to come back at all.

  She must have read my thoughts on my face. “You know what it’s like to have obligations?” she said, the last word like it was an anchor.

  I inhaled and exhaled. “I do. You wouldn’t know it to look at me, but I do.”

  She nodded. “Then you understand. I’ll be back.” She chugged the last of her coffee, and walked out.

  * * *

  I spent five minutes leaning on the doorjamb. Javier couldn’t see me from the bed. He was my only patient, which was something of a miracle for a trauma float shift. He shouldn’t be alone, and I didn’t have any honest excuses to leave. I took Luz’s spot by the head of the bed, hauling up a chair.

  “Anything you want to talk about?” I asked him.

  “Not with you.” A pause. “Nothing personal.”

  There was a fine line between joyriding someone else’s pain, and trying to maintain an open channel of communication. Even I wasn’t always sure which side of it I was on. But I sat there to show I cared, just in case it mattered to him.

  The second hand clicked away. Sike would come looking for me soon. I hoped she stayed tactful, or her definition thereof.

  I could use this time here to read the article the charge nurse had given me. Would it change anything, knowing who else had gotten hurt, or why they’d died? Not really. I had a job to do here, no matter the circumstances beyond. But sometimes I did wonder where that job ended. Did I ever really throw my scrubs into the linen cart and get to just go home?

  I hunched over and set my elbows on my knees, deep in thought, as Javier dozed beside me.

  Luz’s return startled us both. She eyed me with suspicion as she entered the room, coming to stand by my side.

  “Did anything change?” she asked.

  “No. I’m afraid whatever they already told you still stands.” I looked up slowly and realized she was shaking. “Are you all right?”

  “I’m fine,” she said.

  I wondered if she was in denial, or if she was so used to being strong that she couldn’t stop, not even now.

  “Tomorrow, he won’t be able to feel me?” she asked. I nodded.

  “I’m so sorry.” I couldn’t even begin to comprehend her loss. Her anger was so palpable, so strong, it was like I could feel her very atoms vibrating—if pushed wrong, there was a chance she might fly apart.

  “It’s not fair,” she said.

  “No, it isn’t,” I agreed, because she was right. I turned to walk out of the room.

  I made it three steps before she caught my arm and pulled me back, toward the half of the room hidden by curtains, and I let her.

  “What do you think will happen if I give him these?” she asked in a whisper, holding out her other han
d. She held four small glass vials, with a clear fluid inside.

  “Depends on what that is.” I tapped one, and watched it slosh.

  “Luna Lobos.”

  I knew enough Spanish to parse that. “Wolf Moon?” I said, and she nodded.

  “That still doesn’t tell me what it is.” I picked one up. “You can’t give him drugs, Luz. You don’t know what they’ll do to him—”

  “It’s not drugs.” I stared at her, and she went on. “I swear it. It’s a booster. Like—the Red Bull with vodka. It’s not the Red Bull’s fault that the vodka is alcohol.”

  “Even if that’s true, it’s not a good idea. He can’t sit up to swallow right now. You give him that, and he’ll choke,” I said, trying to sound stern, setting the vial back down. Truth was, the sum total in those vials was maybe two tablespoons of fluid combined. Hard to see him aspirating on that.

  “You don’t know what I’ve seen. This stuff,” she said, rolling the vials around in her palm. “Sometimes it’s better than the high.” She closed his hand suddenly, making all the vials clatter. “It might make him better.”

  “You can’t bargain his injury away.”

  “I’m his hyna. I have to try.”

  I didn’t know what a hyna was, and I was still within my rights to kick her out of the room. This was why I hated visitors. You gave them an inch, and they’d take a thousand miles.

  “Sorry.” I put my hand out. “Give it here.”

  “Awww, no—”

  I shook my head. “Give it here, or I’ll kick you out of the room.” I hated being a hardass, but there was no way I was going to let her give him medication, vitamin supplements, anything that wasn’t by the books tonight.

  She squinted at me in anger and dropped the vials into my hand. I popped them into the sharps container on the wall and stepped outside.

  “I’m going on break now,” I told the charge nurse. Hopefully Luz would be less pissed off at me by the time I got back.

  “Come back in fifteen,” the charge nurse said as I pushed through the doors into the waiting lobby.

  * * *

  “Finally.” Sike stood when she saw me. She walked ahead of me to the elevators and pushed the DOWN button.